As positive as possible
Hi buddies been awhile,
& its gonna be my #1 post in 2017
My past 2 weeks was so tiring. I've been finishing my thesis, dealing with my part-time job, writing and fixing so many journals, and ended up to get a trouble from those pretty hectic weeks; the cutie-pimples. ughh (idk is it necessary or not to put "ughh" just to make it dramatic lol)
Anyway, i am typing this while on my way to Bandung, aim to attend a second ceremonial wedding party of my cousin, known as "ngunduh mantu". This lil escape gimme a chance to be relax for awhile and i am so excited to go to my hometown. Have long been craving for mie kocok mang dadeng, cuankie, baso tahu, baso oboy, and yesh, am ready for gaining my weight >,<
it's the moment when you deadly try to not give a fvck to the number of beauty.
Pimples & Body Shaming
Just to be honest, do you feel fine to live with multipimples? For sure you are not willing to get such a nigtmare like that. Never ever. Me too.
Then how if we have given our best to fix it, heal it, by sooo many products, doctors, night creams, day creams, maskers, pills, and.. prayers?
It comes more complicated when i've always struggled and depressed with my own skin's problems. All those products, doctors suggestions, herbal to chemical, successfully drive me crazy even more.
Too unbearable and i cant stand with this, here i am 22nd yo girl, sustaining her life to be happy with everything in fact she is not. Humans are humans. Girls? Harder than alphanumerical functions.
Me? Pathetically born as one of them.
Body goals. Who has ever dreamed to get a summer body? How do u feel when u see VS's show? Flat belly, long legs, thick arms, and a normal size of the thigh. This is what every girl in the world dreamed of. I guarantee. But then foods nowadays, do simultaneously so more tempting and easy to get. I kid u not junkfoods fast foods are everrrrywhere. U know how i love seblak, bakso, patties, cheese, and chocolates? When i was comforted to live my life with all that foods i really love for, my body transformed into a medium size of kingkong. Especially my thigh looks so wide and compact. Am i unconfident? Yes. Bad words has been attacking my days.
It's mistaken and not supposed to be allowed afterwards.
I hypothesize it into ;
Expectation and circles possibly could be main source problems.
Understanding, commitment, and attitude must be its solution then
Manage your expectation, be grateful for everything you had, & pick a good point of people's talk that considered useful for u. This is how u can deal with your circles.
Understand the system of natural justice start from people and their paradigms.
Commit to make a good version of ur life. if u think that "diet" and be beautiful are indeed matter, do it without crankiness. I might choose to suffer to do that kinda strict diet. So i must do it properly, and make my version of healthy life which can fit with my body's capability.
Attitude, for the circles that easily make some "jokes" which is actually hurting others,
better to watch your words and try to be more positive ;)
Don't forget to smile & grateful
& its gonna be my #1 post in 2017
My past 2 weeks was so tiring. I've been finishing my thesis, dealing with my part-time job, writing and fixing so many journals, and ended up to get a trouble from those pretty hectic weeks; the cutie-pimples. ughh (idk is it necessary or not to put "ughh" just to make it dramatic lol)
Anyway, i am typing this while on my way to Bandung, aim to attend a second ceremonial wedding party of my cousin, known as "ngunduh mantu". This lil escape gimme a chance to be relax for awhile and i am so excited to go to my hometown. Have long been craving for mie kocok mang dadeng, cuankie, baso tahu, baso oboy, and yesh, am ready for gaining my weight >,<
it's the moment when you deadly try to not give a fvck to the number of beauty.
Pimples & Body Shaming
Just to be honest, do you feel fine to live with multipimples? For sure you are not willing to get such a nigtmare like that. Never ever. Me too.
Then how if we have given our best to fix it, heal it, by sooo many products, doctors, night creams, day creams, maskers, pills, and.. prayers?
It comes more complicated when i've always struggled and depressed with my own skin's problems. All those products, doctors suggestions, herbal to chemical, successfully drive me crazy even more.
Too unbearable and i cant stand with this, here i am 22nd yo girl, sustaining her life to be happy with everything in fact she is not. Humans are humans. Girls? Harder than alphanumerical functions.
Me? Pathetically born as one of them.
Body goals. Who has ever dreamed to get a summer body? How do u feel when u see VS's show? Flat belly, long legs, thick arms, and a normal size of the thigh. This is what every girl in the world dreamed of. I guarantee. But then foods nowadays, do simultaneously so more tempting and easy to get. I kid u not junkfoods fast foods are everrrrywhere. U know how i love seblak, bakso, patties, cheese, and chocolates? When i was comforted to live my life with all that foods i really love for, my body transformed into a medium size of kingkong. Especially my thigh looks so wide and compact. Am i unconfident? Yes. Bad words has been attacking my days.
It's mistaken and not supposed to be allowed afterwards.
I hypothesize it into ;
Expectation and circles possibly could be main source problems.
Understanding, commitment, and attitude must be its solution then
Manage your expectation, be grateful for everything you had, & pick a good point of people's talk that considered useful for u. This is how u can deal with your circles.
Understand the system of natural justice start from people and their paradigms.
Commit to make a good version of ur life. if u think that "diet" and be beautiful are indeed matter, do it without crankiness. I might choose to suffer to do that kinda strict diet. So i must do it properly, and make my version of healthy life which can fit with my body's capability.
Attitude, for the circles that easily make some "jokes" which is actually hurting others,
better to watch your words and try to be more positive ;)
Don't forget to smile & grateful
Goede Nacht!🌙
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